I see how the internet appeal (to me) has declined over the years. I rmb when I was first introduced to my first online game-neopets (it's a childhood game) by delia & co., I was hopelessly addicted to it. can't imagine myself living that kinda lifestyle now. EAT AND STARE INTO THE SCREEN AT THE SAME TIME FOR THE WHOLE DAY! and I wasn't even doing anything fabulous at neopets. I spent most of my time decorating my shop and at the forum. then there was habbo hotel...gunbound lol. I was equally hooked to msn as well. cos back in the good old days, i would chat with my crush over msn afterschool yo....hehehe.

NOW, I'm not even at the least bit technologically connected to ze current one and i can't seem to sustain my interest in a single online game for more than 2 days. oh oh but don't get me wrong. did that sound like a complain? no lah...I wasn't complaining....

ytd I read an old article from readers' digest on the power of smile. why do I seem to be always conceiving new information from old articles I've read so many times? digressing, this is really an important lesson I've learnt in jc (more specifically, jc2). anw, according to the article, the ability of human beings to smile is an evolutionary advantage. what an interesting concept! so i think it goes like this:

in the ancient times, there were people who can smile and people who are born not to smile. the ones that can smile get to seduce and reproduce and pass on their favourable trait to the offsprings. hence, only people who know how to smile can have sex. over time, the entire human population is capable of producing facial expressions!

actually the basis behind that is that smile connects people lah which i strongly agree.

but i dun understand! why are there people who don't smile and can still look so pretty????!!!! and I look half asleep when i don't.

I'm planning my schedule for dec and jan really soon cos activities are flowing in... =D

top priority: secure a part-time job

I'm also organising a sentosa outing for my family on next next week! If possible, an overseas trip early next year!

miss ending the entry with a mysterious (sometimes meaningless) love quote.

............................(yada yada) and today I'm officially missing you. *winks*

and i dunno what to do either... =( not staying long on the comp cos i also dunno how to spend my time online ! what the helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll....... maybe imma sleep abit later tonight. you know how working late in the night makes one gain greater sense of urgency. i dunno...will see how things go. sleeping late is still against my principles...but i like doing that once in a while. *rolls eyes*

actually I'm very tired now. I'm just waiting for time to pass so that it's will be night time and I can sleep cos if I'm going to nap now...all the disrupted biological clock nonsense will happen again. now you see why I don't burn the midnight oil and I no longer believe in it.

anyway I truly envy babies for being able to sleep so blissfully. They can sleep so easily, wake up without feeling grouchy. and I wonder what do they even dream of. let's say if it's a nightmare, I think the most frightening is just a monster chasing after them that they've learnt from cartoons, not like a ruthless kidnap or what. oh wait, I don't think they know much about movements since they're quite stationery. so what exactly can scare them har? oh but maybe they can picture themselves being wrapped in a towel as the monster picks them up. so cute hor? we think that they're the most vulnerable yet I can't think of anything that can scare them. The more I think about it, the more fascinated I get. I don't think they cry everyday just because they get frightened so easily. Do they even understand the feeling of fear? I'm talking about fortunate babies that can see their mommy everyday. hahaha... now I really think babies are generally happy everyday. then back to the point, what do they dream about?! simple joy like meeting new enormous sized people that would love to cuddle them? more cute furnitures?new toys to entertain them?there are clearly many more reasons for them to be happy.

As we grow older, the number of things that we fear increases too. I think we should all think like a baby to stay happy.

So how did I do for my papers so far? I'm not pinning too high hopes on any of them but they shouldn't cause too much problem, except for surprise surpise ....Chemistry. She is in a real danger. but it's alright cos that was just paper 3. There are more marks to be earned in the next 2 weeks. Chem p1 and p2, Bio p3 and p1 to be cleared before the proper closure of my jc life (hopefully).

I have to include this since it had to happen conveniently ytd when I sat for both my chem p3 and history. I set off in high morale as I was quite energetic and was greeted by a bright and enchanting chirp of good luck. Unfortunately, the day didn't turn out to be as smooth-sailing as I thought it would be. Chem p3 was the most horrible chem paper I've ever done in my life. can you believe it? that was my a level script! it's so bad that it can might as well be considered as I've missed the paper. I felt terribly nauseous at the last 30 mins of the paper. Then there was a 4-hour break in between the 2 papers which allowed me to puke so much of my bile out for 4 times! I don't know why either...Zzz. no prior signs of discomfort except for the nausea. So I did nothing for history during the period but it was lucky in a way that all those that I've studied alr came out as essay questions ie. cold war and global economy. yes 2 only. and 2 cw and 2 ge questions came out ! woots! not that I've done very well for the essays (they lack details but if I wouldnt be able to finish if I write anything more) but I'm alr very grateful for that. I was most confident about the source-based question until I found out that I read the question wrongly after the paper. idiot. luckily luckily mr hendri said that my stands for SBQ are not as important as the stands for essays...so maybe maybe things won't turn out to be soooooo bad.

my classmate had withdrawn from a levels last week. I felt bad for him. I wonder how is he doing now. a levels is too overwhelming to worth not more than a virgin try.

It is only 5pm. I shall go sign up for twitter. no reason why I should be so technologically outdated.

anyway I'm glad that my morale has been bolstered at the finals before the start of a levels.

great :)

btw now I'm quite sure that I detest working in solitary for soooooooo long. siao one. a few days ago, (yes I can rmb so clearly) I threw my class' prom night tix receipts away. and I wonder why was there nothing to stop me.

ps. If the sun represents hope and warmth, then I'm certain that he was beaming at me this morning :D happy happy!

sad to say that not all people realise or rather, yet to be affected by the implications of that. can you believe it? I only met 8 out of 21 people (I meant those that I had enough time to properly interact with them) in my class ytd! true enough, they did come to school for a while but it was under a forced circumstance. we even had to resort to "bribing" them, in order to interest them to come to school. wth right?! eventually when we didn't carry out the plan, the majority disappeared. don't be mistaken, I'm not so bothered by that actually.ever since the day when I've learnt that these people (including my used-to-be-close friend) can get so self-centred at the expense of causing so much inconvenience to others, I knew that they can't be more than just acquaintances. anyway it's their problem, cos I'm very sure that they're going to hate themselves for not cherishing their last few jc days when one fine day, they start to reminisce about their good old days in the future.

on a brighter note, I'm proud to say that I have faithfully been coming to school, treasured the times with my schoolmates and sang the anthem everyday (except when I'm late and still panting away)! and I had fun with meiyen, sihui and cuifen last evening! lol thanks for staying back in school with me la. =)

thanks to the people I meet everyday, you all had made my daily reflection worthwhile.

erm... what can I say? my worries are cumulative, the more practices I do the more insecure I get.

to hell with whoever that thinks that I won't make it. I still believe in myself.

and saturdays are boring. I wake up at a time when everyone else in the house is still snoring away. -_- Do my work and look forward to mealtimes. And now in the evening, there is only my mom and I, the rest had other activities outside. Someone ask me out on a Saturday once I'm free please !!!